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[15 Mar 2006|10:41pm]
i hate that i am absolutely crazy.

i wish i could see me how you see me
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[23 Jan 2006|09:26pm]
one whole year today.

congratulations to you and i.
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[01 Jan 2006|11:21am]
welcome, 2006.
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[05 Dec 2005|09:26am]
[ mood | sad ]

this weekend has been so hard.

but today will be the hardest.
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you said you'd make it to december 1st, and you did... [01 Dec 2005|09:47pm]
mrs mary sobrio

thank for always being like a grandmother to me, since i was around 5. i considered you a "third/extra" grandmother. like i was so good as a kid, i got a bonus. you will never know how much i will miss you because i couldn't explain it even if you were still here for me to try. watch over all of us as you always tried to. i love you. thank you.
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[24 Nov 2005|08:40am]

happy gobble gobble day

it feels too early for today, but at the same time, feels more like christmas. weird.
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[02 Nov 2005|10:39pm]

hello, my name is katie.
and i am a shopaholic.
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[07 Oct 2005|10:39pm]

you should never have expectations. they will hurt your heart. that's why i gave them up.
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[20 Sep 2005|05:05pm]
Do it and i will love you forever. probably.

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

i want EVERYONE who reads this to comment. not just those with lj names. thanks! :]
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[12 Sep 2005|10:45pm]
it's been awhile since i wrote in here last. but there hasn't been much to update about. working and with joe whenever possible, as usual.

although, i finally think i've made a good and final decision about my schooling. i want to be a pharmacist. it's good money. and it's a good job. and it's something i really think i want to do.

i changed my hair color again. it's some weird blondish color now. i don't care for it. and i'll change it whenever i actually get the chance. i'm not too worried about it. i also took my nails off. they're short, but it suits me right now.

it's fall. i must be changing. i always change in fall. i'm not quite sure why. maybe it's cause everything else changes, so i feel i should too.

we went to the ocean a couple weeks ago for a couple days. i got two froggies this time instead of just one. i missed having the frogs in my room. i'm glad i have new ones.

dance starts in like, 2 weeks. it's good. i missed it this summer. more than usual. i missed my twinnie. :[ but she got me a shirt! it's cute. one of those airbrushed tshirts. it says katie on the front and twinnie 1 on the back. i love that girl.

joe&i are good. very good. i can't really see him during the week. i kinda can. i drop by and stuff, but i don't really get to see him. we'll live through it. every day i love him more. :]

this is quite a long entry, and i've run out of things to say. see ya later!
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[10 Aug 2005|02:46pm]
joe said i should write in here.

but i don't know what to say.

so, hi. how are you?
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[25 Jul 2005|06:36am]
[ mood | awake ]

wtf? nothing loud ever wakes me up. sirens, storms, car races, heliocopters... NOTHING. well, the freakin storm this morning woke me up. i was only asleep two hours before it woke me up too. and then, as you can see, it kept me awake. here i am, two hours later... and i am wide awake. can't fall asleep. although, i'm pretty okay with the fact that i got to talk to joe for awhile, and it made me feel better than being awake alone.

also, someone should TOTALLY buy me this. i could wear it to joe's homecoming. plus, it's GORGEOUS and i want it and someone should get it for me. :] thankssomuch.

i'm going to go downstairs now... maybe watch some friends or something for a little while. later!

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the day after... [24 Jul 2005|02:35pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

so friday night was awesome. the ironbirds lost, but we had fun. :]
and i know i'm gonna sound totally stupid and kid-like, but joe gave me his school ring, and it made me really happy. :] and if it makes me happy, i don't care what you think. so there.
and then yesterday was amazing. things didn't exactly go as planned, but hey, what ever does? he was gonna come up and fix me breakfast, but he had to go up to rising sun to get me my present, and that was the only time he could go. so i didn't have breakfast fixed for me, but that's okay. :] he bought me a bracelet [cause no boy has ever gotten me a bracelet] and it says 'love' in english, spanish, and italian. :] then i gave him his stuff. i got him a new baseball bag, new batting gloves, a baseball shirt [from the ironbirds game], two pairs of sunglasses, and a 'then and now' picture frame. and in the frame i put a picture of each of us when we were little, and a picture of us now. :] i also bought him a ironbirds hat at the game. then we went to see the bad news bears [which i recommend btw, it was FUNNY]. and then after that we hung at his house for awhile and then he made me dinner. :] lasagna, with sparkling cider. hehehe. and we had cheesecake, but we forgot to thaw it, so we're gonna eat it today. haha. it was the best day ever! :]
well, that's it. later.

[EDIT@2:40] ok... so i just looked over this right after it was posted... and i definately don't think i've ever had that many smiley faces in one entry ever. yay!

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there's nowhere unless you're there... [19 Jul 2005|12:09pm]
[ mood | awake ]

so, my grandmother is doing much better. and i am SO glad!

i tried to use a self-tanner. the good news is, i'm not orange! the bad news is... i'm streakish. so i will be buying a different kind and fixing myself. *sigh* i hate not being able to tan.

anyways... so i talked to my aunt this morning to see if there was any way i could come back to neighborcare, but be in one place for a while so i can get some money together. she said she'd talk to mark. the only problem now is this means i'll probably have to quit hallmark. the first job i've had that i've really liked, and i might have to quit. that sucks! and if i wasn't dredfully broke, i would figure something out. however, i am that broke. it bites.

and joe and i will be six months on saturday! i'm excited. he has the day planned! eek! i can't wait for him to see what i got him. :]

i went to see charlie&the chocolate factory on saturday with nini. it was good, but not as good as the original. but i didn't expect it to be. it was very good though. you should go see it!

i think i'm done. i'll update later.

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[07 Jul 2005|09:47pm]
[ mood | worried ]

my grandmother went home today.
i'm so glad she's alright.
i was so worried.

sometimes i really want to write in here,
but i have no idea what to say.

sometimes it really scares me when i talk to my friends.
cause they know what they're doing.
with going to school, or working.
i'm just drifting.
that scares me.
and even if when i get married i don't have to work.
maybe i want to.
maybe i want to write.
be a journalist.
do what i want.
why is that so hard for me?
why am i stuck working at hallmark for no money, when my boyfriend, who's still in school,
gets a job he really likes and it pays a lot?
i'm the one who should have a good paying job.
i need the money so bad.
why did i leave neighborcare?
and why, when i decided to stay, can't they EVER give me hours?

sometimes i wish i had friends i could count on.
like, more than the VERY few that i have.
or friends i actually saw and did things with.
heh. whatever.

sorry. i'm just not in a good mood today.
just ignore my ranting.

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[04 Jul 2005|10:23pm]
/begin rant.

wow. you know what's funny.
i finally have the chance to have a great holiday.
for ONCE in my lifetime.
and guess what...
my grandmother was put back into the hospital today.
and btw, in case you were wondering...


don't ask what's wrong with her.
don't even ask if i'm okay.
because i'm not answering that first question.
oh, and here, guess what...

i'm not okay! i'm INCREDIBLY upset!

so if you wanna talk to someone who's upset... find someone else.
cause i'm not talking.

/end rant.
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[19 Jun 2005|10:27pm]
[ mood | blank ]

nothing really to say.
been working, &with joe.
dance is over.
recital went well.
my twinnie is in florida for the summer. :[
i miss her already.
that's about it.

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you'll probably never even know who you are... [17 Jun 2005|09:12am]
[ mood | blank ]

i know i was told not to worry about this, but it eats at me everytime your screen name comes up. i just don't understand. i know things have changed a bit, but we've known each other since we were babies, basically. toddlers is more appropriate for three i guess. we've known each other such a long time and you let one thing change us. one STUPID thing. i'm sorry that it bothers you that i love him, but that's too bad. because if you can't be happy for us, then maybe i don't care that our friendship is barely one anymore. if you were a good friend, you'd be happy for us. and he told me not to say anything, and to not let it get to me, but i can't. i read that blog about 20 times last night. over and over. and you can say you said those things out of anger, but i know that you've said them other times too. i've heard you. and don't you know that a lot of things you say out of anger, are truely what you mean? especially when you repeat them multiple times? you really hurt me with one sentence. just one statement has been eating at me worse than any other one statement i've heard my whole life. nothing tim ever said to me, nothing ryan ever said to me, has EVER bothered me this much. and they've been the two people in my life who have hurt me more than any other. you were there for that. you remember how miserable i was. now, look at me. how happy have i been these past [almost] 5 months? but that doesn't matter to you, obviously. because you're letting it get in our way. but you don't have to anymore. because you'll only see me sometimes now. because maybe i'll quit the only thing i've ever loved doing and been good at my whole life. maybe then you'll see how much one goddamn thing you say can hurt someone.

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this is what happens when you are home alone all day and have nothing to do except think about stuff [13 Jun 2005|07:22pm]
you deserve better than me. better than my life. but you choose everyday to stay apart of it. i love you for that, amongst eveyrthing else. you go through so much crap with me, because of them, and you never regret it. i've never been loved like that before. i've never loved someone like this before. i miss you every second we're not together. i miss the way you smell, feel, kiss, talk, look. i miss every little thing you do that you think is stupid, or silly. i've never felt anything more real in my whole life and i thank him everyday that we're together. and you are the only person that knows who he is. and our theory on 'us.' i just don't know how he knew, but he did. and i'm so incredibly thankful to him everyday for that. and for you. and for everything. i wish i drove, and i wish i didn't make stupid mistakes which prevent us from seeing each other. i hate it when we're apart. i just wish we were both older. i want to live with you. i want to be with you all the time. i've told you, and everyone else knows, i'm not the girl who wants to get married, i was never that girl. but i see marriage as a sure thing for me now. i feel things and see things in regards to me that i would never have seen if you hadn't seen them first. it's funny, because everyone else thinks we're together too much, and we don't think it's enough. i wish i was with you now, so i could tell you these things to you, instead of a computer, or a website. even though i know i could never say some of this to you out loud, i know you know it anyway. and i laughed today when you told me what you told paul. because i don't think i've ever dated a guy who would've told one of his friends something like that. because it's not the cool 'guy' thing to discuss with your friends. and that amazes me. your parents raised you so right. i don't thank them enough for everything they do. not just for you, but for me too. they treat like family, your whole family treats me like family. i've never had anyone who's family treated me like this. i would be completely lost without you. i love you more than i ever knew those three little words could mean.
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[08 Jun 2005|07:52am]



hope you have a great day! LYMI!!
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